Month: August 2016

Apoptosis

comic books My brother recently came down for a visit, and it was nice to see him for the time being. He doesn’t come around often, but when he does, he loves talking shop with the regulars at the cafe. He doesn’t live in South Florida anymore. He lives in North Florida after he graduated high school and began working for a construction company.

He graduated from UF with a degree in social engineering and ended up with the job of someone who studies value engineering. He is doing a lot better than me, and I am really happy I got to see him. Most of the time it’s hard for either of us to be able to see each other but every couple of months we make a big effort actually to be in each others presence.

This isn’t to say that we don’t talk, we just usually spend our time playing games together and doing that sort of thing. But he does like coming down and bombarding my cafe with drinks and arguments about who would win in a fight between the hulk and wolverine. He thinks the Hulk is greatly overpowered and wouldn’t be able to regenerate from being cleaved to bits. It’s adamantium for christ sake you can’t change that.

But lately, things have been a little bit weird; we’ve both just been stagnating. Neither of us has really begun doing what we want to do, but we have ended up in professions that both yield great stability and reward for both of us. While we aren’t necessarily complaining it is not what we sought out to do when we left home for the first time. Only real difference between us is that he can avoid mom and dad for as long as they don’t like traveling north while I’m just sort of pinned down here.david and goliath

I can only go so far because if the shop needs me, who are they going to go to? I need to be accessible and available after all. And I’m not ungrateful or anything; I just wish that maybe I could get my foot in the door somewhere else. But it’s hard to move when you’re carrying the weight of business on your back and nobody can helm the place that has helped you so much in the meantime. It’s just such a strange time.

My brother once offered me a job you know. Its weird because I told him, no, but I always wonder what would have happened if I took it. Would I be writing this same blog but complaining about different problems? It’s hard to tell how much of it is me being unhappy with the workplace versus me unhappy with the world as it is right now.

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Hollywood Hey there! I’m Barry, and this is my blog. I live in Miami, and I love it down here. I work for a small Cafe in Hollywood. A lot of gamers come in there, so you get all sorts of conversation. But it always feels sort of one-sided to me. So I started this blog where I can just have my thoughts and have anyone listen to me if they want to. Sometimes it’s hard being able to connect with people, and while conversations tend to be about back and forth, this one is less of dialogue and more of a monolog.

Anyway, I like my job; I have a degree in Biology. Like an idiot, I thought that I would just be able to walk out of college and immediately be able to start working with cells. My friend Adam went on to work for a cell company immediately and it always kind of scarred me. I feel like I put in just as much work as he did, and somehow he ended up with the job. Granted he put in more lab hours than me and wrote his thesis on stem cells when I was writing mine on daughter t cells.

So while I like my job, I just feel like I’m not doing what I’m supposed to be doing you know? I feel like I should be out doing something else, something better. I want to cure cancer or fight AIDS, and here I am discussing whether or not Captain Marvel vs. Iron Man is in anyway a reasonable successor to the original Civil War. It isn’t, but that’s beside the point.

I just feel like we were all raised in this generation thinking we were going to do great things when I feel like there is nothing great to do. It’s hard to stay motivated to apply when all of the jobs keep getting scooped up by other people. It’s hard to feel like I’m contributing to my society when they clearly are more interested in in-fighting than exploring dangerous and exciting subjects.biology

I feel like we need to work harder and change the world around us. I think like the world that right now needs to be changed and I feel like the only way to do that is to get to people, and I can’t get to people unless I do something with my words. I don’t know if I’m going to be able to change the world with my silly blog, but maybe one of you readers will be able to understand where I’,m coming from and be able to relate or make the changes that I can’t.

This blog is my message to the world from my little island in my mind. If you feel the same way, if you feel like there need to be changed, give me an e-mail.

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